Dustin' off the blog

Hello my friends. It's been awhile, so I thought I'd jump back on here. Although much has changed since my last blog, I'll give you the abbreviated version:

* I'm going to be a father sometime within the next four weeks.
* I am taking a hiatus from law school, and working in higher ed again.
* I've moved from NYC to New Jersey...same rent, much more space (i.e. nursery)

So, although it doesn't seem like a lot in terms of quantity, my life has changed drastically in the last 10 months. The last time I posted an entry, I was a second semester law student. The lens through which I view the world has changed a lot since then. Mainly, a lot of things scare the shit out of me. I'm helping deliver a child into a terrifying world, and it doesn't look like it's going to all puppies and rainbows anytime soon. Also, the word "responsibility" has taken on an entirely new meaning to me. Where I was once responsible for my own actions, I am now responsible for the survival of another human being. Prior to having a child, drinking too much meant I could roll over and fall out of bed. Now, it means I could roll over and smother my child to death. One results in a bump on the head, the other in prison time. I guess what I'm trying to say is that my decision making process involves a lot more than weighing the consequences of my actions as they would affect me. Even as a husband I was able to make choices for selfish reasons. That time is over now. I'm no longer going to law school only because I want to be a lawyer and have a positive impact on the world. I'm going to law school because I want to make the world a better place for my child by doing good work, as well as providing economic stability. Back in February, economic stability played a very small part in my reasons for going to law school. That changes when you realize that it's not cool to have a kid and be two paychecks away from being homeless.

Quote!
"It behooves a father to be blameless if he expects his child to be." ~Homer (Greek poet & historian)

"Marge, I'm going to Moe's. Send the kids to the neighbors, I'm coming back loaded!" ~ Homer (Simpson)



Stay tuned for more...I'm sure things will get much more interesting over the next couple weeks.